Worry

If anyone can find a way to make me stop worrying please throw it out there.

I am almost on the verge of panic attacks 50% of my day because of worry. I do pray and try to give it to God but I worry about so many things. Mainly its that something is wrong with the baby. I am so worried all day about this because of the medicines I took early on in my pregnancy. I know that in the first few weeks that little bean is totally protected but .. well I didn't pretend to be sane. Even though the doctors, pharmacists and nurses all told me that the meds I was taking are even safe all through pregnancy and are given to pregnant women all the time. I tend to blow things out of proportion. I sometimes don't trust the medicial community because of their feelings that its ok to give every woman pitocin and strap her to a bed to have her baby which usually leads to a c-section. I do like my doctor and I don't blame her for the way my birth went. Its the entire OB world right now that seems to not want to let your body do what it was designed to do... ok, sorry for that tangent.

I had been doing so much better too. I was worrying a lot right after Tyler was born and was pretty much a hypochondriac afraid of leaving him without a mother. I think it was hormonal but it was awful! I had been so much better the last 8-9 months but well... its back.